December 10, 2012

This week I just wanted to share my testimony with all of
you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got an opportunity to share my testimony
in the first ward sacrament meeting yesterday and how it has changed
after everything that has happened!!!!!!!!!!!!!  My mission has been
so great these past 18 months and I am so thankful for all the
experiences that I have had and for all the things that I have run
into and learned. I seriously cannot believe that 18 months have
already gone by, I know that these next 6 months are going to go by
even faster and thats why I want them to be the best months of my
mission!!! I am also so thankful for these past 8 months that I have
gotten to spend here in my dream area!!!!!! I love the Dallas 1st and
9th wards so much!!!!!!! They will always hold a special place in my
heart!!!!!!! Im not going to lie, being a missionary is most
definitely not easy. I've realized that this past month!!!! Even
though its been a month since the assault it has still been so hard
for me to get back to normal again, but I have felt all of your
prayers and love!!!!! It just takes time and I need to be patient!!!!!
This past week has probably been the hardest week for me!!! I have
felt the lowest I have ever felt in my entire life. I even thought
about going home. I just kept thinking "why am i still here? my
companion went home, why am i still here?" I felt like I have been
wasting the Lords time and that Im not able to be the missionary that
I used to be!!!!!! But my mission president met with me on Friday and
he helped me a lot with this!! I talked with him about all the
miracles that I have seen on my mission and he told me that I was
forgetting a miracle and he was looking at it right then. He told me
that Im the miracle. Its a miracle that I am on a mission!!! I love
being here!! I wouldnt trade the experience that I just had for
anything even though it is so hard to get through!!!! On friday after
I met with President Durrant I got to go to the temple and see a
recent convert family that I taught when i was in Carrollton get
sealed!! It was the best experience ever and I know have realized why
I am here, to see miracles like that!!!! The two sister missionaries
that started teaching them a couple years ago were there and it was so
cool to meet them!!! It just made me so excited for when I get to come
back to Texas and see the people that I taught get sealed!!!! I get to
see miracles everyday and I love it!!!! Miracles will never stop until
our faith stops!!! Other peoples happiness is really what makes me
happy!!!!! People ask me all the time how I am so happy and what my
secret is!!!! There is no secret, seeing other people happy makes me
happy!!!! About a week ago we got our weekly call from Parkland
hospital about how we need to go and give a blessing because one of
our members is there!!! Well we went there and I got the privledge of
meeting Brother Harned!! He is from Lubbock Texas and he was in a very
serious car accident!!!! He has a halo around his neck and splints and
screws on his legs and arms. But the thing that surprised me is that
he was still so happy!!!!! He started telling us all about his life
when we met him!!! He is still going to be in Parkland for a couple
more weeks and we visit him every week!!!! Thats what strengthens my
testimony!!!! I am so grateful for Jesus Christ!!!! I know that he
went through more than we can even imagine!!!!! What I have felt this
past month is only a little little bit of everything that Jesus Christ
felt just for us!!!!!!! He loves us so much!!!!!! Thats where our
message starts is that we have a loving Father and Savior in heaven
that cares so much for us!!!!!!! I am so lucky to get to share this
message with everyone!!!!! I am going to work as hard as I can these
last 6 months and make them the best!!!!! I am so grateful for this
Christmas season that we all get to focus on Jesus Christ and his
birth!!!!!! I love Jesus Christ so much, He is my Savior and Redeemer
and my best friend. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
I hope all of you are getting excited for Christmas!!!!!!!!!! I hope
to hear from you soon!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have a great week!!!!!!!!! See
miracles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!